Rabu, Mei 18, 2016

ENNICHISAI 2016 ~ Miracle , Power of Love~

Hello Dreamers !
I'm back !
It's such a tired some . 
I want to said ! 
Thank you for the hardwork everyone !

So i already in Jakarta since Friday.
Since it's friday there's nothing much to do.
BUT there's something to do. haha .

The first day i arrived i go to meeting with M-stage people.

With beloved Eonni , Taeyeon <3 and Oto-P ( producer of Bunga Sakura Song )

So i will have performance at M-Stage for final and P-stage after WKG.
at friday i only do meeting and rehearsal.
Rehearsal at P stage was taken too much time.
I starting around 10 pm ( maybe ) .. it's supposed to be at 8.50 pm i guess.
But can't do anything since it's about technical stuff.

After i finish rehearsal, I decided to go back to Hotel.
I'm too tired , and i decided to skip Dinner and Breakfast in the early morning.
And i think that's a bad idea since actually i need lot of energy for Direct Selling at Saturday.
I know it's totally HOT outside there. 

At saturday i leave hotel for direct selling.
But before that i need to eat my lunch first :)

I eat at Solaria . I'm Hungry ><
I need some food !
Today style is Mori Hime <3
This Costume made by Hanika
I always ask her to make my costume. I even recommended her to my friends .
Because she is really good and neat at making costume.
I won't recommend anyone if they are bad, right ?

After eat my lunch which is taking too much time because i took lot of time to decide what menu i have to eat. lol
Then i go to ICGP Booth for Direct Selling.

And i only Direct Selling around 2 - 3 pm i guess ? Because i switch with Ito-san .
And today it's raining and humid . ( this what make you sick , be careful )
So around 3.30 pm i decided to go back to hotel and take a shower, when i come back around 5 pm my booth already closed. hahaha
I need to change my clothes since it's smell not so good.
And because i'm a girl i need lot of time to get ready .

Then i go back to hotel again since my manager said i need to prepare for final M-Stage.
i guess m-stage finish more faster than P-stage. 

I singing at Final stage.
After Finish we go to Rehearsal . Yesh for Tomorrow .

Rehearsal at Odesa.
I think this is Jakarta Keion Club Rehearsal Place. 

I finish my Rehearsal around 1 am .
Yesh 1 am.and i decided to not have dinner. 
Since tomorrow i have to checksound for M-stage i skip my breakfast as well.
I need to get ready so i wakeup at 5 am in early morning.
I know maybe for some people is tired some.
And i realize for me as well , but we have to Responsible about what we did ( Sako-san said this )
So we have to do it, and sacrifice somehow.
Because not only you. Everyone is tired as well.
Can you imagine Ennichisai staff too ? They totally tired too.

I change my face <3
Change the hairstyle as well.
Makeup and Hairdo by My beloved best friend Gissela Vianney.
Thank you !
She is the best , my makeup is keep stay even until night :)

First i will have performance at M-Stage together with Ito-san, Sako-san , and Jakarta Keion Club !
It's such an honor !

( Photo by Pitra )

Did you know what is behind our tie ?
Why the color is Different ?
Lemme tell you !
We called ouselves as Seasons.
So the color is stand for every each seasons.
I wear pink, which means is Haru Ranger lol
or we called it as Spring Ranger.
Sako-san wear Blue which means He is Natsu Ranger or Summer Ranger .
Jakarta Keion Member using Yellow one.
Which means they are Aki Ranger which means Fall Ranger.
Ito-san wear White which means Fuyu Ranger which means Winter Ranger.
So that's the reason behind our colorful tie :).

Photo by Pitra

After i finish , i have a time to take a lunch.
Finaly i'm so hungry.
YOSHINOYA i'm coming ! haha.

After i finish, i need to prepare for P-stage !
Here we go !

( Photo by Joe )

Some people maybe realize that i cried at P-stage.
Maybe some people ask why i'm crying at stage.

For me.. To be able to where i stand right now..
it's like a dream..
A few years a go ..
I never imagine i will have people who give my fans a name..
I know there's people outside there support me but i don't know until when they will stay.
Because sometimes i have a low self-confident.
I think everyone ever feel that way sometimes.

Few years a go..
I never imagined someone i never know before calling out my name at stage..
I keep pray that someday my voice will be heard and they will realize that i exist.

Few years a go..
to be able in this stage is a dream for me..
Few years a go..
i only covering someone song..
Few years a go..
I never imagine that i can go to Japan..

But now..
To see someone calling out my name for the first time at stage..
It's make me tear up.
To be able where i stand right now.. There's always Happiness and Sadness.
But when you guys calling My name and You guys said that you like my song's.
It's make me realize there's nothing called nothing.

I means i always feel like my career is getting nowhere.
It was a lie if i said i never thinking about stop.
But when i'm at stage last week. I realized and it was hit my heart.( Which means good haha )
Thank you for making Realize and make me don't want to give up.
Thank you for calling my name at that time.
Thank you for always waiting for me..
Thank you for always trust me..
Thank you for everything..

I know i'm still not good enough..
and i'm not going satisfied with what i am right now..
so i can fly to the sky more higher than what i am right now..
so i can spread my wings to my highest dream..

I will cheers you guys as well to make your dreams come true..
No matter what people said , if you trust yourself.. i think soon you will be able to find your way to make it come true. 

Thank you .
i will treasure you guys a lot.
Because without you , maybe i will give up easily, 


Let's back ! After
P-Stage i go back to prepare at M-Stage !
For the final.
I will singing this songs with Hiro-san as well :)
Yesh hiroaki kato-san ! 

Awesome !
Final stage is awesome !
There's Hanabi everywhere.
And i can meet everyone here at the stage.
It's a challange for me to singing final song in here.
Lot of instrument become one..
But it's give a goosebumps as well.
Ennichisai this year, i'm so lucky i have an opportunity to take a part.
I'm lucky enough to be in the same stage with wonderful musician
wonderful people

I will treasure this memories a lot.
And thanks again for YOU my SPECIAL  !
who always trust in me.
always be there for me.

This is Miracle..
This is the power of LOVE you give me !
This is Miracle , Love you always give me make me stronger !
Thank you !

Let's start today with Smile
and END it with a BIG SMILE

Lot of Love,

Kamis, Mei 12, 2016

I Lost My Voice / Direct Selling Schedule

Hello Dreamers !
So on the last blog i said i lost my voice . 
And yes up until now my voice is not come back yet.
I can't hit my high range as usual.
My voice is a bit hoarse.
I don't know what i have to do.
I can't practice as much as i want.
And when you can't do something you always love.. it's make me really depressed.

It's started 2 days before Sakura Matsuri ( 30 April - 01 May )
So last night before it's happened , because it's our last Practice i really pull myself too much.
So the day after practice which is the day after practice after (????) i eat my lunch suddenly my throat really weird.
It's hot and itchy in the same time.
So i drink lot of water because i think at that time
so i drink a lot of water at that day.
but sadly my immune system already breakdown.
So i catch a cold and cough unstoppable.
At that time i only can pray and eat medicine , go to doctor..
But it's not helping AT ALL..

Until at the day of my performance which is 01 May 2016
I still Cough , Lucky Cikarang Weather is humid , so i think it's really help me.
BUT my prediction is WRONG
I can't stop coughing at the night.
So i eat a lot of WARM CANDY
so if you see some of video , my tongue have a color since i eat lot of candy to make it's stop.

When i'm on the stage i don't feel anything at all.
And yes , I did so much mistake . 
And i don't want to watch my video at all.
because somehow i think i'm a Perfectionist one.
If i said it's not good enough i will be stressed out.
So i think it's better not to see it.
 ( Even when some people said it's still acceptable )

Everything is going right , until...


I couging endlessly, i can't stop.
I don't know how to stop it until i feel like i want to throw up
My throat is really hurt.
When i go home.. My voice is 0
Not 0 , I still can use it from my stomach but it's not can be heard.
I still have to go to office since i can't OFF too much, because i will have the day OFF for Ennichisai.
Some people is really ignnorant at my office.
Even tough i'm sick they not try to treat me like a sick person.
even i go to floor 3 with stairs.. and i cough again . lol 
So i decided to have a bedrest for one day and going to doctor.
Doctor said my vocal chords was hit by cough.
I means because i cough so much so it's make my vocal chords hurt.
And yep. It's make me lost my voice..

And now , my voice slowly recovery , but you can listen if my voice is not a normal voice that i used to be.
I wish it will come back soon. 
I wish i will be good at Ennichisai.
Tomorrow i will go to Jakarta to Rehearsal. I'm nervous since my voice is shaky when i hit high melody one. haha.
Wish me luck guys !

And now, i learn from this. i will never push myself too hard if i'm sick.
My voice is my investment. I can't keep up my dreams if something happened to my voice.
I barely can't imagine how if i lost my voice for the rest of my life.
I have a dream , and my dream is not an ordinary one.
You have a dream , and everyone have a dream..
and every each of you have a dream .. not an ordinary dream..
so keep up the good work but remember about your health also.
because your health is your biggest investment. 
So i wish everyone who read this will be healthy and do their best to pursue their dreams !

i will update my blog again on tuesday.
Since starting tomorrow i will go to jakarta and i can't update my blog/

And there's something i want to tell you.
So this is my preview for my mini album collaboration with Ito-san
which will be selling at Ennichisai.

Here is my Direct Selling Schedule :

14 May : 13.45 - 14 : 15 and 15.30 - 16 : 00

Please come as fast as you can !
Here the preview ! 

Let's Start today with SMILE
and end it with a BIG SMILE !

Lot of Love ,

Rabu, Mei 11, 2016

ENNICHISAI 2015 ~ Final Day ~ / ENNICHISAI 2016 ~ It's Power of LOVE ~

Hello Dreamers !
it's has been long time not update anything.
Blogspot can't be access in phone, if i can write it on phone it's so much easier to update.
So it's almost that season again. 
Yes ennichisai.
I don't know what i have to write anyway.
should i write something going on currently or something which is already past.
So lemme tell you my final day at ennichisai 2015 and what i currently prepare at ennichisai 2016 which will be held in this weekend.

So let's go back to last year, shall we ?

yeah ~
I've become World Cosplay Summit Character,
Wig is totally ruined when first i saw it.
I try my best to make it good.
It's not good but at least it's more acceptable

So in my 2nd day at ennichisai i spend only for direct selling , Judging World Karaoke Grandprix Indonesia regional , and singing 1 song .
I sang shirushi from LiSA
you know right i'm totally in love with this senpai.
I ever watch her Concert here in Indonesia.
When she come out, I'm Crying a lot and she always notice me and see me.
that's the best moment in my life.
but guess what ? when i see her to receive poster. I'VE BECOME SOOO COOL
lol. i pretend like nothing happened.
omg i feel like i'm so dumbfounded. 
okey, skip.

Here is my picture at Ennichisai 2015 with friends :)

Yeah 2nd day quite FUN !
at least i'm not only cosplaying.
But also singing and judging haha.

And now !
I prepare for Ennichisai 2016 !
Yep yep..
but sadly my voice is not come back yet..
i can't singing a lot..
i only wish miracle will come to me..
I still can't reach my high range vocal..
when you can't do something you always love it's really make me irritated.
Hmm ?
You want to know what happened with voice ?
How can i lost my voice ?
I will reveal soon in Next Update :)
Maybe tomorrow ? 

But now lemme tell you a BIG NEWS from me !
My 1st mini album will be release at Ennichisai !
And i will have direct selling !
you can check my website here !
There's karaoke and lyrics which is FREE TO DOWNLOAD !
So i wish you guys excited as i do.
well then~~~

Let's Start Today with SMILE
and end up with a BIG SMILE

Lot of Love,

Kamis, Desember 31, 2015

2015 ~ The Year of Happiness ~

Hello Dreamers !
Sorry for late update , so today i want to thanks to god !
I have a beautiful year again this year.
There's so many thing happened this year .
I'm glad and thankful that god give me a chance so i still can alive and can do everything that i never done before.
Met so many friends which is i can tell them they are my family right now.
I can take a part to something i never done before , like become a singer for Ennichisai Movie theme song. It's really such an honor.

It's all started when i'm still and active at youtube as czkim 
It's stand for Chezzy Kim
why that name ? Before i'm joining Japan World , i was so in love with korean culture ( Well i still do love korean culture haha )
So i decided that i will use that name.
At that time , i really love uploading lot of stuff , when i think of it , i feel disgusting about myself/
it's just too funny and such a weird of me.

( it's already gone , i banned by youtube now haha )

Why i started my youtube account ?
Did you know justin bieber ? I thought that i can be the one of Youtube singer as well.
Maybe someday , someone will see me on youtube so i started using youtube at 2010.
but then after 2012 there's nothing change.
So i decided that i have to change as well.
i want to be a singer and i want to fix my life as well..
why ?
so i'm the last child from 5 children.
All of my brother and sister already married , and what left is me now
Did you ever heard my Higher song's ?
There's some part of lyrics said
" Jakaruta no kensou no naka hitori watashi o sodateta "
It's mean " in the big city of jakarta ( actually i was raised in bandung haha ) she is the one who raise me "
Yesh. I born in single parent family , so i need to do my best to my mom.
everyone want their best for their parent.
Yesh , sometimes i always arguing with my mom , since we looks like big sister and little sister now.
i remember when i was bullied a lot in elementary and junior high, i never tell my mom or anyone. that because i don't want my mom worried about me. besides i don't feel like it bothers me ( or maybe i pretend that it was oke )
This year , i told my mom that i've been bullied for several years. 
not only at elemantary school or high school. 
but also in playground ( Seriously ? Yeah Seriously )
My mom was so surprised .
At elemantary school , yeah i'm such a brat since i really hate this girl. because of her no one wanna talk to me in the whole school , so i had a chance to do something bad. i feel sorry about it after.
And i remember a lot when someone fall and make her forehead cut by something and everyone was blaming on me. i can't said anything . i just like said this on my mind " am i doing that ? but i'm in different circle with her . i have supernatural "
i remember at that time i was in grade 4th of my elemantary school.
And did you know what happened now ?
They maybe already forget about what they did to me.
I forgive them but i can't forget .
So i want to said if you bullying someone now , you have to think .. that you make a big impact to them negative or positive way , so just stop bullying.
because maybe you will forget it someday or later but not the victims.
Go said apologize may help it.
but.. some of them won't said that . because they never think they are bullying someone.
back to the story haha

i want to fix my life so my mom will be have a good life as well
is not about my dreams , it's about my mom as well..
and it's not all about my mom..
it's about my dream as well..
since i was a kid , i have a dream that i will have a big concert !
i always listen to mariah carey , whitney houston and celine dion .
i remember i'm so crazy about NSYCN ? how to write it again ?
I think that's why i can't sing low tone so well , i guess it's because i never practice it since the beginning.

(photo by pitra)

So since i want to change , i need to go out to the world which never i imagine before.
going to jakarta for join competition .
it's been a while since i'm in competition.
my last time is maybe around 2003 and i'm shaking because of nervous and forget a whole lyrics.
it's happened in lawson competition as well. 
it's such embrassing but i learn from that .

Since i want to change , i join lot of competition but never win or always be a runner up.
Join in the band. 
I'm sorry i can't going with you guys now.
I'm sorry to ruin everything.
Thank you for give me some place to grow..
Thank you so much Aozora band.

And here i am right now..
2013 first met with my producer as well as my manager
He keep believe in me..
no matter how not good i am..
he always believe that i can do it..
it's really hard to keep trust from people, so i will do much as i can and i dont want make them to dissapoint.
to everyone who support me ,
i don't want to let them down.

Some people said that i have to quit with something uncertain like this.
they said you only wasted some money. 
but now i think they wrong.
it's not a lot but i receive some money from this , slowly but sure my mom life and my life can be fix.
we are a little bit steady now, but not too well.
some people will try to make you down and make you give up.
but the one who can make a decision is you..
you are the one who can stop it or keep on it..
sometimes i want to stop.. sometimes i think they right..
but , when i remember the whole thing that i came to this so far ..
i can't give up easily..
i don't want to give up.. besides my mom is support me, i don't want let her down.

This 2015 i met Keion as well..
I meet a new Family .
From Stranger to became Family it's so fast especially for me.
I found something warmer , having fun with them is such a beautiful moment .
And it's such a moment that i'm always waiting for when i go to Jakarta.
I have new little sister and new little brother.
I have lot of new okaa-san and new father as well.
We sharing music and life.
Sometimes i feel grown up around them.
and my friend who help me a lot this year as well !

I go to japan 3 times this year.
Lucky !
And this year i have lot of job as well.
I can buy guitar from it .
I feel grateful.
This year is super year for me.
God thank you for this year, i'm sorry for always complaining .
i'm sorry for the mistake what have i done this year.
i wish next year i will become a good person. more a good person.
i wish everything will goes so well..
i wish i can meet another year .. 
i wish i will grown up older..
I wish for everyone a happy new year !
let's do our best again this year !

Let's start today with a SMILE
and end up with a BIG SMILE !
Lot of Love,

Selasa, Desember 01, 2015

ENNICHISAI 2015 ! ~ 1st DAY ~

Hello Dreamers !
So this blog is about Ennichisai 1st day !
I met all of my friend from Nagoya this day .
And of course a NEW FRIEND TOO !
I'm so excited today , Since i never cosplay as character before. 
Well i did Ryuko Matoi at Ennichisai 2014 at that time i become a finalist WKG indonesia Region.
But now , i'm not finalist anymore.

So since the first day i become Nico from Love Live !
I never feel i'm cute or act cute ( since i'm not cute at all so maybe if i act cute everyone will feel sick haha ) , so today since i cosplay as Nico from Love Live i have to be CUTE , right ?

Yesh ! I feel different. I lack of Makeup skill , but i did my best to put my makeup.
Jakarta is really humid at this time , i really need to go shower soon after it finished.

I meet my nagoya friend's , Miu and Rio :)
Yesh, me and Rio planning about doing one project cosplaying since our last meet at Nagoya.
So here i am with Rio-san.

And i met a new friend too, Taeyeon Eonni ! <3
She is totally gorgeous !

And fellow cosplayer from Indonesia <3

I share my booth with Taeyeon-san and Rio-san
I sell my CD with a totally good price :)

Yesh , he is Sako Kouhei well as you know he is the one who make my song
Higher and Pray for you :)
He helped me a lot !
Really a lot !

Ah i forgot to take picture with Hanika-san , she is my designer for this few past year.
Since my image have to change, so i only have project together when it's all about cosplay now.
( She is the one who use Nozomi behind this picture )
Actually our project cosplay is more bigger than this, but since we didn't have a chance to meet each other we can't take a picture with all member.
So this 1st day is full of fun and sweat !
My CD is currently in half of amount.
Glad everyone buying my CD <3
Next .. 2nd Day of Ennichisai !
Full of Excitement !

Here is Bonus for you guys !

Let's Start Today with SMILE
and end up with a BIG SMILE
Lot of Love, YUMI

Kamis, November 26, 2015

Nihon no Matsuri 2015 ~ Final Day The Smile City ~

Hello Dreamers !
So let me tell you about one of the big event in Bandung
Nihon no Matsuri !
After i go to japan, my next gigs is in Sakura Matsuri , After Sakura Matsuri i have to rock Nihon no Matsuri stage.
Haha, Well the band member is same, but adding 2 more personil.
The stage is become smaller although it's totally BIG STAGE.

Actually this Photo is taken by Michi-san
He is come to record Nihon no Matsuri for his Movie Project.
At that time is totally BIG RAINING in Bandung.
But look at them , they still watching us and another J-band from bandung even though it's heavy Raining.

My playlist in here is same as Sakura Matsuri , since the event only different 1 week from it. So we decided to singing same playlist in here. Of course since this event only one day we only sing 5 songs.
What is the most interesting if you having stage in Bandung ?  is the audience.
They are totally the best.
They had lot of Expression to Express..
I think you can't find something like this in other City...

Look at that !
Their Expression is totally in full charge even though it's heavy raining outside.
I Feel like i'm Really lucky to born and raised in this Beautiful City
I wonder if they catch a cold after this. 
I wish they will be okay.

I give them one of my CD for FREE
it's good for promotion, so i give them some quiz and give them my CD if they can answer. haha

And what ? They are totally become a zombie when i give it to the girls
I'm sorry i make some trouble for you guys. TT
I didn't mean to.

After this performance i come back home and rest.
after this i have to attending Ennichisai
This year is really "lot of work" year for me.
I'm really Lucky.
But then when i arrived..
Michi-san send this all those picture to me..
And this one is really make me feel happy till i drop some tears..

What a warm smile..
I feel like what i have done today is not wasted.
My time to Rehearsal with band member, 
My time to coming this far..
I never know that i can make some people smile..
Since i was a kid , i being bullied by people a lot..
when i told them i want to be a singer.. 
Some people only laugh at it..
But now.. I feel proud that i'm not giving up on my Dream.
It's still the Beginning , and it's just started..
There's something waiting for me in the future..
I will never give it up..
I will do my best...
You guys too!
If you have a dream , come get it !
It's about your choices you choose !
All of your life is in your hand !
So i wish you can do the same about your dreams too!
There's something waiting for you !

So this is the end of my blog for Nihon No Matsuri 2015 !
Thank you for Rully-san and Aeno-san for inviting me, and for re-arrange my band member. 
Without you guys i can't be in the stage.
I know that i'm totally such a burden, but i will more become a burden for you guys in the future .
For My BFF Ade kurnia, Hendry Kurnia ( they basketoman and they got Kurnia Name ) , Fajar Thank you for stopped by and watching my performance in here.
Thank you for people who keep supporting me till now, Nirwan and the gank ( there's lot of name haha )
Thank you for keep coming if i have performance in Bandung.
For the rest of my band member thank you!
For michi-san thank you for a shot !
Well See you guys on the next event !

Let's start today with SMILE
and end up with a BIG SMILE !
Lot of Love , YUMI
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